What a Day

Yesterday was a full spectrum event for me. In the morning I attended Zoey’s funeral services and the afternoon was spent with my Chadders celebrating our two year anniversary.

Zoey’s funeral services were exactly as I expected them to be; moving, difficult and emotional. I was again reminded what a strong and beautiful couple Kim and Dan are. They both put on brave faces and held back tears; which was more than what most people, including myself, could manage.

Kim and Dan were the first two people I saw when I entered the church. Their presence took my breath away a little bit. I wasn’t expecting to see them up close. I wasn’t prepared to look Kim in the eye. She looked beautiful; it radiates from her. She was wearing a brown and white dress and he was wearing a tan suit. They looked better than anyone in their situation could possibly look.

There was no casket; simply a picture of Zoey and some items from her nursery. There was 82 candles lit during the service; one to represent each day of her life. Kim and Dan re-lit her baptism candle and 82 people were given smaller candles to light off the candle Kim and Dan were holding. The smaller candles were then placed in the center of the church.

This was such a beautiful and touching sentiment. I was given one of the 82 candles. I barely maintained my composure as I lit my candle off of Kim and Dan’s. Kim stayed strong the entire time. She was shaking like a leaf, but she maintained and didn’t let one tear slid down her face.

After the service I briefly talked to them again and headed home to Chad who was waiting for me.

We went to a late lunch at the Cheesecake Factory. It was delicious. I splurged and forgot all about my gestational diabetes. I ate whatever I wanted. I had spaghetti and meat sauce and finished the meal with a slice of Turtle Cheesecake that was sinfully delicious.

We spent the rest of the afternoon at home, relaxing, cuddling and even taking a nap. Chad bought me the “What to Expect During the First Year” book. It’s over 700 pages. So I imagine my reading needs will be taken care for awhile.

I can’t believe Chad and I have already been married two years and been together for six. I haven’t grown weary of him yet. In fact, I find myself enjoying, loving and needing him more and more each day. I imagine that my heart will burst when I see him hold Cayden for the first time.